So… I’ve been trying to figure out why I hate the Lifetime Movie Network so much… besides the fact my mother watches too many movies on this channel!! Seriously, how many times can you see Valerie Bertinelli (insert Judith Light, Missy Gold or any number of 80’s semi-stars– and Plush Room Cabaret singers) battle cancer, an abusive husband/boyfriend, drug or alcohol problem or a dark family secret they are being blackmailed for???!! Mom lights her Pall Mall, takes a long silent puff, places the “stick” in the ashtray next to her chair and proceeds to solve one of her many crossword puzzles whilst the sad story parades on by (and across) the television screen. Oh, wait, i was supplying the answer to why I HATE this channel, not to a psychological background of my mother! Oh, that digression thing again!!
Well, here it is… I think and feel that my life has become (or is becoming) this LMN movie of the week. There, I said it!! I don’t know if it’s true…. maybe if I see a cameo by Charo pass through my life (wait… isn’t she one of the Grand Marshals of the Pride Parade this Sunday??!… which means she will be passing through my life!…hmmmm?? Ugh!! ) that will be the final straw to break the back of my “denial-camel” and the delusion that this is just a momentary exile of my own doing (or mental state) and the realization will set in that it’s going to take a lot longer to resolve.
But… I…
Oh, you know….
